Miracle.

Healing.

I’ve prayed for people a million times.

I’ve seen people bound to wheelchairs for their whole life, walk.

I’ve seen people gain sight in their blind eyes.

I have seen the Lord do some crazy, cool healings all throughout the world over the last few years of my life.

I’ve never seen Him do one in my life personally. I’m not sure why that is. It could be because I’ve never had an injury or anything that I desperately needed healing for.

If you need a catch up read my blog here about that time I went skateboarding. Nutshell: the doctor was 95% certain I had a torn ACL. I was also that certain I had one because of all of the symptoms and the physical pain I was in when he did a physical exam of my knee.

I had a trip to India planned so I still went to be with my squad for 3 weeks. I wore a brace. I iced and did leg exercises. I limped around. I took a lot of rest. I couldn’t dance with little kids because I couldn’t move my knee anyway but straight.

I have had so many people praying for me from a distance and even in the office they have stopped me and prayed complete healing over me. While I truly believed that Jesus could do it for me I also believed that this was a process that I needed to walk through, learn from and grow from.

I was ready and willing to have surgery and go through the recovery that it takes.

I got home from India and had an MRI. I went to the doctor and he was shocked to tell me that I not only had a potentially torn ACL but I also had a shin fracture right below my knee. He put me on crutches with orders to put the least amount of weight on it. He was not only shocked by the fracture but he was shocked by how I was telling him I was in little to no pain most days.

I give all credit to Jesus for the lack of pain.

I talked to a few people about what the doctor had told me and they encouraged me that I should get a second opinion so I decided to go to a surgeon (shoutout to Mr. Sappington for pulling some strings and somehow getting me into a good one here in Gainesville) to get another exam and see what he had to say about all of this. I have a trip to Nepal in a few weeks and I needed to know if it was actually a good idea to be flying across the world again.  

I got into the room and he asked me to explain how it happened and all of the pain that I feel. When I got finished explaining it all to him he simply said “this is all ACL pain that you are explaining.” He then did a physical exam and told me that he has no idea how it’s not torn but that my ACL is fully intact.

Jesus.

He told me that the ACL took A LOT of trauma and that’s why my left leg is losing all the muscle mass and is in pain when I am on it too much. I asked him multiple times if he was sure and if he had looked at the MRI I just had.

As far as the fracture goes he told me that crutches and a brace are unnecessary because of how well it is actually healing on it’s on. I am 6 weeks out from my injury and and I would have needed those things right when I first did it.

Again, thanks Jesus for healing a fracture like it’s been in a brace when it hasn’t.

It’s been a wild process over the last 6 weeks.

Getting news of a torn ACL.

Getting news of a fractured shin.

Getting news of actually not having a torn ACL and the fracture healing on its own.

While the ACL isn’t torn and while the fracture is healing, it is still going to be a long recovery to get back to 100%. I am going to be doing physical therapy. I’m not going to be long boarding for a while. I am still going to be taking it as easy as possible to make sure that it all is healing well. I’m still in some pain but not as much as they say I should be.

Jesus healed me.

He came and He answered bold prayers. I know what I felt on the day of my injury. I know what I felt during the first physical exam. I have no doubt that my ACL was torn. I also know that God is ultimate healer. I know that He has final say. I know that He cares for me and He hears His people.

He’s teaching me what determination means. He’s teaching me all about self-discipline and self-control. He’s teaching me all about dependence on Him and how all of those things go together. He’s teaching me how to slow down, listen to my body and make choices for health and wholeness.

The biggest thing I am learning in all of this is how to fight for myself as much as I fight for other people. How to care for myself as much as I care for other people.

Ya know, how He has healed so many people around the world but how He also cares to heal me. How He cares for all the people I have met. He cares for my squad. He cares for you.

But He also cares for me.

 

What. A. Guy.