This past week the world lost an incredible woman. My Great Aunt Eva was someone who loved this world well and left an impact that is mind blowing.
Today I was on my way to lunch with a friend and the opposite side of the interstate was blocked and then our side started stopping. We realized we were witnessing the funeral procession of an officer who was killed at a routine traffic stop last week. There were 2 officers saluting the whole procession and hundreds of cop cars with their lights on. It was like nothing I have ever seen before.
A few weeks ago I watched the funeral of George Bush. I wept through the whole thing as the ones closest to him spoke of his character behind closed doors when the whole world wasn’t watching and how it was the same character that was there when the whole world was watching.
This all has got me thinking.
About the impact that I am leaving in this world.
About the impact you all are leaving.
I want to live a life that is bigger than myself. I do not want people to just miss me when I am gone, I want them to always be pointed back to Christ. I truly believe that how I live now leaves an echo all throughout eternity long after I will be gone from this earth. I want people to see the way that I live and know that it’s only because of Christ.
Am I truly leaving places and people better than when I found them?
In my wrestles and winters and hard seasons am I still glorifying the Lord?
In my celebrations and triumphs and fulfilled promises is He the one I give the glory and honor to?
Am I living my life for Him and Him alone or am I living it so that people will think I’m this really incredible human who is doing good things by playing with orphans and sitting with widows?
These are the questions I am wrestling with and while I want to say yes I live my life 24/7 for Him, I know fully well that I am human and it’s just not true. So as I was praying about this earlier I heard the Lord say “live your life in a way that even in the midst of the flaws and failures people can speak truth about who you are at your core”.
I want people to say that they saw Jesus in me. That by knowing me they know Him. Not because I am Him. Not because I want to be Him. But because I know I am loved by Him and I am His daughter and that is all that matters.
So, let’s live lives where Jesus is what’s talked about at the end of them. Let’s live in a way that people know Him far after they have known us.
I am headed to Springville for Christmas tomorrow and then I will fly out for Thailand on the 27th to spend almost a full month with Gap T! I cannot wait to get back out there with them and see all that the Lord has done in and through them!!! Be sure and subscribe here or follow me on Instagram (@kacietillman) for all of the updates while I am gone!!!
